day 44, 2012

its nite, its late, and i got to online, alas. although....
see, at this speed, its, slow

but still worth it!!
just like old time, using the 55k modem, wakakaka

anyways, i've been too busy to remember anything else, thus, another project, postponed? delayed? cant find the exact word. but i'll try to update anything on the other blog as possible, adding the fact i might be too tired to update it or, just no idea what to put there

last few weeks has been too challenging. my car was used practically everyday. since the day i arrive here. somehow, it has become an important part in my family, since my dad cant drive, much. and the fact that this household held much sick person. it has become a, mini ward? and as the latest addition. my little nephew has been diagnose with autism. as for what it is autism? to simply put it, autism is some kind of brain problem that can make it somehow hard for kids to communicate, but sometime adult may have it too, at least that was what the doctor told us...

as for dad, he has 2 appointment upcoming month, a lab test TRO OM and a CT BRAIN TRO brain tumor. dunno what will happen next...

my car's birthday is coming, so need money, again. perhaps i'll last for 6 month, top with this situation? plus she needs her wheels to be replaced, and her ass seams to be, a little holey?

as for me. posting seams to be too far away. so, i'll try to enjoy my little "vacation" while it last.

wakakakakakakaka, sigh....

Day 7, 2012

a new year. think its not to late to wish everyone happy new year, hopefully a happy one. think it will be happy. anyways, i did a dumb thing to delete my old post at my pic blog, so i start a new one. hopefully i can continue that one for a long time.

so, new year...

gotta have a new resolution? have to? i kinda like goal then resolution, i dont even understand what resolution means anyway.

so my goal this year

-less social networking, so less facebook, leaving only blogging, hahaha

-get a job, sooner or later, Radiographer, i will be

-settle card debt, at least half of it

-fix bluesavvy, paint, service

-take mom shopping, a must

-take dad shopping, a must

-learn something new, anything i do not know yet

-get a wife, need to move along

-get a house, build mine, like my dad did

last year i manage to go half, so hopefully this year i can do all of it

the thing i want, not need much, so more of a want

-a camera, compact or DSLR, still thinking

-a desktop

-a tv

-a microwave oven

-new glasses

-new false teeth?

-a new shoe

-a new jacket

well, at least after a month working

so now, i am officially my family technician, tutor, cook, garbageman, cleaner, baby sitter. they said i havent been home for too long, hahaha

hopefully got posted before Gawai, need something to celebrate by then

Year Closing

yay, 2011 is coming to an end!!! Supposedly happy right? i must say. i has been a fun year. though the sucks part is there. lets just say its, bitter sweet. like one of those dark chocolate, never like em, but kinda tongue flicking. the most happy moment? the end of this 3 years here. cant say its boring or whatnot. it was fun, full of fun memories, not to mention the not so fun ones. still, im glad its over. 3 months at clinical area, its the best clinical experience ever. all the staff are, awesome. just awesome.

lets see...

January

nothing much, just here and there, and there was, the curve, One Utama, The Store

owh, and this early year i actually go for a mass at Kepong. yay for me!!!

February

went for a little adventure, going to Genting, 2 cars, and a bike, haha

All the things to go, including a joke bout bringing a chick up, hehe

this guys are the best!!

Owh, research jammed my brain this time along

Cultural week, to bad RnR performance just, okay. but Occupational Therapist, the best!!

March

Its full with clinical area and ect...

nothing much

Team Nuclear Medicine?

April

Basically the same routine

again the research, the clinical, the assignment, the tension, the cursing, the formative

So my head is as hazy as picture above

May

my vision is getting dark, my research is going clueless and spiral...

so, again with the routine, the research, the clinical, the assignment, the tension, the cursing, the sumative, the going home to send my car back

June

Sumative Exam, send my car home

Cost me MYR26++ to send it back. arrive late, damn late than schedule

but then, after i got my car, i got to bring my family to places, go to my cousin's place. fun!!

July

Starting to Clinical at Sibu Hospital. as a new member, everything is blurry, scared. cant lie. but you gotta do what you gotta do, right?

but then, the staff were friendly, and we were brought to picnic at Belawai Beach, free of charge!!!

not a beauty like cenang beach, still its salt water, sea water...

August

Clinical at Mukah Hospital for 2 weeks, fun, yeah

not much case, so.. boring yet.. fun...

1st day arrive i stay with friend's brother, then stay at cousin's house. feel kinda bad to go and leave without nothing much

view from my cousin's quarters

then back at Sibu Hospital for 2 weeks

MRI, CT scan...

September

2 weeks of holiday, doing nothing much, bought new lappy, hehe

doing ultrasound and appointment counter

October

On-call, fun!!

then there were KSKB JB students, and from Masterskill too, the real fun really fun, hehe

really like em

November

Back to KSKB SB and to misery, doing research and prepare for Sumative Exam

no fun, it is

then, there were, langkawi...

then

December came

good news, i pass everything, recommended for appointment

we had our farewell. the funny thing for me, is, i actually cried...

manly cry, i may add...

post cry lunch

last picture....

so, this year may end, in few days?

but for this blog, it ends now, next year, be new chapter.....

oh

yeah.....

Day 355, 2011

it has been a while since i wrote anything here. or type...
anyways, cant say its official, but i now hereby, posses 2 diplomas and no degree. dunno if i should celebrate this...

along this 3 year. i wont lie, and i cant deny. i yearn for it to end. now it ends, i made me somehow, relieve...
will i miss the moment while i'm here? yes? wish i can turn back time? no. wont relive the moment even for a million dollar...
have i gain anything? a lot...
experience...
age...


it was fun. this 3 years at KSKB Sg. Buloh... with K46


my hair is lessening..
my car is soon to settle...

as for my wishlist..
i tries didnt i...



anyways, i will be free most of the time. so i plan to start an infoblog. and recontinue my pic blog...

Day 318, 2011

Final paper for final semester in my final year. Finally, but no resting yet. at least till the result is final. next is induction. for a week. then, its waiting till my posting. fun starts now? dunno...

anyways i think i forgot how to have fun. or my idea of fun is hot here, yet. hopefully i get it back this up coming vacation, with the guys. hell i dont even really can talk anymore.

since my phone broke down, i bought new phone, e5, honestly its not that favouring ans not suiting me much. so i bought a new n82 just now. a second hand actually despite of an advice by a friend to not buy it. now there is a little bit of regret. but i, hopefully will have fun with it.

Day 235, 2011

its night. im at my hostel room. just did MRI Brain and my pituitary gland seams to be, not healthy. now i wonder about my health. seams like hard to sleep nowadays. too much thinking? yeah...

mom told me to stop worrying about other family members business and start thinking about mine. its kinda hard when you live close to them, fell kinda helpless. maybe i am thinking too hard about others. me? too hard to think about. even i, sometimes lost track of how i am, and what do i suppose to do (beside doing research, case study and hospital project) now for myself. i cant drink out, no buddy. i dont have money to buy new gadgets. and i need to settle my debts.

seams like im lost....

and...

i nearly lost my faith....

its been a while

i just realize i haven't update this blog for days, weeks? anyways, life is not that fun, either way around. there's always seams something bugging my mind. maybe its my surrounding, because, honestly, i don't have any fun here, except for the fact that i had to. i really miss my old life, from years ago. our KP made a visit yesterday, and what he says is true, at my age now, i was suppose to be climbing my career ladder, not waiting at the bottom. right now, i wonder what have i become, if to say i continue at that path; getting my degree part time, getting job done, maybe i even have more asset than i am now, maybe even, a family of my own.

yeah sure, a better career, that everyone crave for, but what have this cost to me? 3 years of reliving my diploma student life. a bit of regret? yes. a little of thankful? yes. an unsatisfactory? a lot.

well, what the hell. 7 month of hell as a student, then another longer hell as a working class hero...

life is fair? never....